today is the last day of sgb and its wonderful
i learn alot of things this whole month and most
of it is my weakness and i am going to try and improve
wat i am lacking.

thanks everyone for being by my side and helping me
and helping me to clean up everything.

i got wat i needed to move on with my life.
hmm somehow i dont feel so hurt at all cos
maybe i fall before that why i know wat is coming
my way.

i dont why but somehow i know this was coming
so i wan quite ready for it and with this ans i can
go back being BFs with u if u can let the thing down
i have let it all down with ur ans.

OI u better rmb wat u say if i nid u will still be there
for me BETTER RMB this dont stm away ok anyway
being bfs is still the best for us and pls stop being so
FREAKING COLD to me la

TODAY IS MY 3RD ON DUTY
wonderful how time pass so fast today in my
3rd doing my paa duty and very soon everything
would end.

it sad to end but we must end SGB in a big bang
let hope i can meet all of them next year for now
all i can say is c u till then.

when SGB ended can u final stop being so cold to me
ok or not?

i am too busy to blog the past few days and totally
lack of sleep and today i get back all my sleep by sleeping the
whole day damn good la more then 20hr of sleep yeah :)

trm is going to be damn crazy cos going to one of my friend
house for a party lets hope i dont go to high and drink non stop
and cant go to work the next day.

alot of unhappy things happen but it has all gone now but the
pain have left another scar in my heart i may not be the most
wonderful person but my feeling towards the someone i love
is more than 100%.

yesterday when out with kim to do some last min shopping
we spend the whole afternoon doing shopping but still got alot
of things still nv buy yet sian la after doing some shopping when
down to ikea wanted to look for jiayu but she nv work yesterday
and after shopping when to have lunch at subway hmm the whole
time with my new friend was damn fun and we were full of rubbish
keep laughing non stop for the whole wow i damn long nv like that.

thank u kim for that totally full of crap and rubbish afternoon i enjoyed
myself. lets come out again and crap around when we r free haha :D

lord guide me through this hardship and bring me to ur kingdom
let me rest in ur arm.

I final told the person i like that i like her althought
i told her at a very wrong time and i was tired of holding
back and keep telling myself that i am only her friend.

she nv really say anything but i know i am only holding
a very slim hope but at less i say out wat i really feel deep
inside me and i feel so much better haha.

is like a big rock have been remove from my heart it feel
good even i know that the person i like may not feel the
way i feel for her but i jsut wan to tell her that.

i will always be by her side no matter wat things happens
believe me and trust me ok

dont worry i am not going emo because of u cos i dont think
crying and emo over u can make u fall for me right.
i am stronger that u think i am.
i have grow alot stronger from my past.




hmm got scolded by ben cos i told him i am going to leave
after car flag off and working with ivan is ok la not that bad
at less i can slack and just work whenever he is not there.

today i final get to talk to her and just before talking to her
i shouted at her and is ben ask me to say sorry to her and i
really dont feel like at first but ben wanted me to do it and i
dont why i also so good do it but lucky she is quite clam and
then we sat at the bus stop and final i manage to talk to her
althought alot of thing nv say finish but i am ok at less we
r starting to break the ice between us i am happy even we
spend so lit time at the bus stop cos its mean more then the
past few days that i am working with u.

maybe i may not have to leave to let u be happy and enjoy.
let us carry on and enjoy everytime we r going to spend
together ok friend

i did something damn stupid i walk from BBHQ back home
and during this time i really think why did something
like that happen today i dont know but there is something
i know that is our friend is coming to a end and i dont like
it at all but since things have turn so bad and i also can
do nothing i have make a move i am going to leave bbhq
but i will finish up car flag off first.

maybe u may think i am childish or wat so ever during the
1hr i spend thinking through wat has happen and why have
it happen the only think i can ask i am over protecting u and
care too much about wat other ppl comment and since i found
out that without me u r more happy and i also wan my friend
to be happy so i make this move.

final i wish that u would enjoy u time working at bbhq
and all the best with whatever u r doing.

dont worry from now till my end i would not care about any beside
BB work and if i can i will leave u alone and to care on being friend
a not is up to u.







After yesterday work when to buy joshua birthday gift
and we bought this damn cool thing called pokerchips
and me,glen and yiting bought for joshua cos his birthday
was trm.

yesterday after watching a Chanel 8 show at 8 pm i dont wat
is the name of that show but it really touch my heart and after
watching the show i told my dad i dont wan to do for the BB camp
i dont know why there is this weird feeling in my heart that is telling
me that i should not go for the bb camp.

i dont why i have been looking forward for it but now i wan to redraw from
it i also dont why i just feel very guilt i can have fun and the other r working
like mad i dont like that kind of feeling at all lets hope i can try and let go that
feeling for now.

my heart is aching but i dont know really why :X